Monthly review 4: April 2009

Erm... Y am i keep writing abt schl life? Sigh.... teacher is a very stressfuland busy job. I know all sorts of works nowadays r stressful but imagine we need to busy with teaching students, coaching students for koko activities and still need to bring back books to mark...c? very busy rite? anyway, sometimes i think it's becoz i am not an effecient teacher coz i saw some teachers r very relax. so, is it my problem?



Ok, now let's go back to april 2009! April is a challenging month to me. I need to organise a leadership camp for all the prefects, monitors and assistant monitors in my schl.. it's kinda hard for me to organise a camp coz i am not an active student during my schl times so i dont really know how to organise a gd camp.. But i still have to do, so do lar!!!



Luckily i get the help of my schl counsellor (thanks ms.Fazreena)!! At first, we thought of many places to do the camp. but, after we reconsidered it, we have decided to go to kem mahkota kluang. Many students asked me y we chose tht place, so now i want to tell the reason!!!

1. My schl planned to have camp thr since last yr but didnt make it. so, we hope tht we can try to do camping thr since we nvr go thr be4.


2. All the participants for this camping r gals and our schl lack of male teachers. so, it's quite risky to bring our gals out of the schl. Security is the main reason..Gals, i hope u can understand!!


3. i know many of the gals dont like camping. Actually, teachers do hate camping like them too coz we need to sacrifice our weekends rest time to take k of the gals. Another reason y we choose kem mahkota is : we dont have to involve many teachers for the activities coz most of the activities will be handled by the ppl thr. so, teacher will get less work, (less work = less complaints)!!

I felt so tired to organise the camp, so many works to be done!! Contact the person-in-charge in kem mahkota, prepare proposal, collect fees frm students, order t-shirts, brief the teachers and students involved... and many more... After all the preparation, it's the time for the camp!!! I am not interested to tell what happened during the camp, what i wanted to share is things after the camp...

After the camp, i heard a lot abt the camp from students and teachers. Frm teachers, they all agreed tht it's good to have camping activity thr. Of course lar, u all dont have much to do mah!!! Frm students, it's quite sad for me lor... Many participants complained abt the bath room (bilik mandi terbuka) and also abt the activities. What i wanted to say is: kem mahkota is not a place for challenging activities but it's a very gd place to built the students' discipline!! I think most of the students didnt enjoy the camping this yr coz most of the time they need to do marching (what they hate the most!!) and they hate the bath room too.

i think it's normal to feel sad when u tried very hard to do somethings for somebody but at last the ppl didnt enjoy or appreciate it... I am sad, disappointed and i am lost!!! I dont know what can i do so tht i can create a win-win situation. what can i do so tht other teachers wont complain and at the same time my dear students can enjoy it???? I am still seeking for the answers, anyone of u who can tell me the answers?

i'm lost!!! i lost interest and confidence to organise anymore camps, this makes me worry coz as long as i am in the schl and as long as i am the discipline teacher, thr will be a lot more camps waiting for me!!!

I'm lost but life goes on, works still on!!! Whenever i felt lost, i will try to persuade myself to go back to my core business. What is my core business? Of course teaching lar!! Whenever the situation demotivates me i will keep on telling myself to go back and concentrate with my core business. I dont know whether it is useful but this is the only thing i can do. No one is thr to comfort me abt this so i have to comfort myself. I keep on telling myself tht i dont have to feel bad as long as i have done my part and as long as i gave my best.....