Boring course, relaxing life...

Hi, havnt blogging for so long!!! Am i busy???hehe,I think the month of June will be the best month in year 2009. 1st June, started the 2 weeks school holidays, followed by it is a 2 weeks induction course in Malacca... This is a compulsory course for all government servants in Malaysia before we get our confirmation. Erm, as what i put on my title, this is a boring course. 100 teachers from Johor state gathered in a 3-star holidays in malacca, woke up at 6am everyday for morning exercise, after tht we need to stay in an extremely cold hall for 4 talks right frm morning till night time... Actually, most of the talks are nonsense, they talked like we are going to be the school kerani but not teachers, sigh... At first, i cant wait to go back home and go back school to see my dear students but i changed my mind then... The life here is so relaxing!!!! Imagine life with no school admin work, no student, no house work and no trouble, what a kinda extremely good life is it??!!! Apart frm that, u can enjoy 6 meals per day + servant to tidy up ur room, Oh my God!!! I am so fortunate!!! Can i stay here forever? I know the answer is NO, so sad... So, WAKE UP!!! Be prepare to go back school, work harder and try your best to become a good teacher!! Esther, i know u can do it!!!



Frankly speaking, i think this course is a waste of time + waste of tax-payees' money. We shldnt spend so much on this kind of silly course. Anyway, since we have to come so i will treat this as a reward to us. Goverment appriciates our hard work so they granted us with this extravaganza holidays, haha.... Ok, times up. Go back school and c u....

My friend....

I wrote so many things abt my life.. This time i would like to write abt my friend. Yup, it's my friend, it's a friend of mine. Who is the special one for me to write abt? Hehe, if u read through my blog, u will discover tht her name appeared for so many times... Who is she? Yup, she is Tsu Chin!!! Surprise?!! Erm, whr to start at?



Tsu chin and i know each other since secondary schl times but we r not tht friend during tht time. She is my senior so we juz know each other by names only, haha. However, 缘份天注定, we get to know each other better when we met in university. We met each other again in the university and we became coursemate. It's so happy to meet with hometownmate when u r away frm home. We clicked together, haha!! During the 4 years in university, we registered the same subjects, went to lectures and tutorial together, ponteng lectures together (hehe, dont follow our footsteps orh) , went to shopping together and even gossiping abt others together!! However, if i want to talk abt my enjoyable uni life i must not left out another two names: weyfen and meiling... Four of us always stick together during the 4 yrs in uni. I miss my uni life so much!!!



快乐的时光总是特别快过，4 yrs past and four of us were posted to different places. meiling posted back to sarawak, weyfen to sabah and surprisingly tsuchin and i were posted back to our hometown: Kluang!!! 4 of us were separated but tsu chin and i still stick together, haha!!! Even though both of us are busy with schl works but we always come out to yamcha together. Everytime we go yamcha, we will talk abt our work in schl and also abt our students. This is a good time to share our feeling and grumbles. Actually i am the one who r having the most gumbles, so i must thanks tsuchin for lending her ears, thanks tsu chin!



Not only yamcha, tsuchin and i always go shopping together too. We go shopping together in Kluang and also in KL. Tsu chin is a kind-hearted lady, y? haha, she knows i am lonely and i have not many friends so she always count me in for most of the activities she joined. Everytime she found any good offers abt makan or main, she will ask me along. But dont misunderstood orh, not only makan, minum and jalan-jalan, she invited me along for badminton games too!!! I am so grateful to her, coz she helps me to widen my social circle. I think my life will become even more boring if i dont know tsu chin.



Tsuchin is not only kind-hearted yet she is also a creative and brilliant teacher, a filial daughter and she is good at cooking too... Am i doing adversiting now? Haha, i am not. But she is indeed a good woman. i really 佩服her, she always got so many ideas and she is a person who practice the law of 即时行乐！！This is the thing i always wanted to learn frm her, hehe.



We are so friend until my colleagues also know abt us. They know tht we always go out together. In addition, we will attend a 2-weeks course in malacca lately. OMG, pls dont misunderstood, we are only good friends, we are not lesbian, haha!!! I must clarify otherwise she wont be able to find bf anymore, haha!!!!



We met with so many people in our life,

We make friends with so many people in our life,

It's easy to have friend who can go crazy with u,

but

it's difficult to have friend who can listen to u and at the same time offer opinions to u,

it's even more difficult to have friend who can share your feelings and be supportive to u,

so i am grateful,

To God (although i am not a Christian), thanks for giving me such a good friend and

To Tsuchin, thanks for being such a good friend.



Thanks my dear friend, may u stay happy and healthy all the time!!! Friends forever!!

Again, it's holidays...

Like what i said earlier, we must enjoy the holidays given to us as much as possible!!! So I must think of our things to do so tht i can continue to enjoy my holidays... To those who working in other fields, pls dont jealous!!! We deserved it, haha!!!


I went back schl last thursday to certify my pay slip and also to bring back all my students' exam papers. i have decided not to think abt it again once i left all the exam papers in the schl. we shld be positive, although they didnt do well this time but i am confident they will do better next time. So, do give them and me one more chance!! 别放弃，希望在明天！


I went to town with tsuchin, diana and sin fang on friday. We had our lunch at Irodori. One thing I must tell : i enjoy eating sushi so much, especially cheap and nice sushi, haha!! We sat and ate thr for ard 2 hours i think, since 3 of us (tsuchin, sinfang and I) r teachers, we talked a lot abt schl life. After listening to what sinfang and tsuchin said abt their students and their life in schl, i felt tht i am so fortunate!!! I am so lucky to be posted to convent, although we all agreed tht students nowadays are getting worse but at least my schl is far better than other schools. so, i kept on telling myself tht convent is a good place and my students r good students, haha. So, be contented abt it!!! Okok, i promised tht i will try to love Convent and also try to love my students more from now on, haha!!!


On 06/06/2009 (wah, what a nice number!!), i went to BBQ at Agape Shelter (an orphanage home in Kluang) with tsu chin, diana and also with other friends. This was the second time we went thr. However, this time we have more people and we have more food also, hehe... I brought along my niece, Celine this time. She enjoyed a lot thr. we BBQ-ed and played with the kids thr. We went back at ard 9pm, the kids enjoyed and we enjoyed too. This is our second time and i am sure thr will be 3rd, 4th and 5th...time. So dont worry kids, we will be back!!! C ya...

Holidays..........

Dont worry, i wont talk much abt schl this time. Y? Coz it's holidays now!!!! Hurray, it's holidays!!! Since it's holidays, we must try our best to enjoy it!! Schl 2-weeks holidays started at 30th may, i went to KL with my best friend--Tsuchin on 30th may itself!! Normally, we will go to KL during every holidays. OMG, what's so special abt KL? We finished our tertiary education in KL and we have quite a lot of friends who r still working in KL. so, we can grab the chance to meet up with our friends in KL. Furthermore, we like to do shopping in KL. It is becoz KL got more cheap and well-worth goods to buy and it's better to shop in Kl compare to Kluang. Kluang is a small town so no matter where i go i will meet my dear students. It's quite embarassing to let students saw us shopping, hehe...



Let's talk abt the KL trip!! The 1st day when we arrived KL, i met with my ex-roommate: Sing Yuing (SY). So happy to meet her again after two years. Time flies, we havnt met each other for 2 yrs since graduation. We had our lunch at a restaurant Fireman BBQ, actually eating is not our main motive, we spent ard 3hours there. We eat happily and chit-chat excitedly too!!! So many things to share and talk abt, we enjoyed so much!!! Actually 3 hours is not enough, i hope we can have more time to chat. Nvm, 分离是为了下一次的相聚, we r looking forward to our future gathering!! SY and i hope tht another roommate of us : fonlin can join us next time. If with fonlin ard, i think not to say 3 hours but we can chat for 3 days, haha!!! Shout out: fonlin, make sure u join us next time!!!



Haha, it's time for shopping now!!! Tsuchin and i went to so many shopping centres during the 2 days. We went to One Utama, The curve, Ikano Power Centre and also midvalley.. We shopped a lot and we ate a lot as well!! Actually there are not many good offers this time however women are bornt to be shopahalic. Even though i said tht are not many things to buy, i still managed to grab 5 blouses and 2 bags, OMG!!!



we left KL on monday, 1st June. Although we wanted to stay for longer but no choice we need to come back to settle some works at the schl. so, bye bye KL. What i want to tell is: KL is a good place. It's a good place to shop and it's a place which i spent my 4 yrs there. I miss my uni life, i miss my KL life and the most impotant is i miss my friends in KL!!! Goodbye to my dear friends and to KL. Take k and i will be back, haha....

Monthly review 5: May 2009

Time flies... It's already May!!! Erm... Which word shall i use to describe my life in May? I think i will use ‘平静中又带点激动'吧！！！Why i said so?



First, let me talk about the NRC 2009. NRC (National Robotics Competition) is a competition abt lego robots and programming. The students need to use a software to write a programme tht can make the robots to move. This is the second year i trained the students for NRC. Last yr was my 1st yr to preapre the students for NRC and it was a mess. We were so blur abt the competition so we did badly. This is my second yr and i started to prepare it earlier this yr. We invited trainers frm Sasbadi (main organiser of NRC) to train our students (6 students involved) and we started to prepare it 2 months earlier. We put in so much effort and we thought we will do better this yr. For the sake of NRC, my students and i stayed back late almost everyday. We stayed back in the schl to study abt the programming and went back home at ard 4pm or 6pm. It's so tired!!! we are tired not only due to went back home late but it's also becoz of the results of our work. Sometimes we able to produce some results but sometimes not, it's quite disappointing. Sigh.... The competition was held on 12th may and we went to pasir gudang (so far!!!) for the competition. The results? Sigh... Like what happened last yr, although we worked hard for it but we still failed... All of us were so sad and disappointed coz we really worked hard for it... Anyway, i have to say thank you to all the students involved (Thanks weihong, liching, deeveeya, chiuling, jiahui and suting!) becoz i know they did their best and they sacrificed their time to prepare for NRC. The competition was on 12th may and their mid-year exam starts at 13th may (yup, the next day after the NRC) yet the students still willing to work hard for NRC so i really 佩服 them... After NRC, they apologised to them coz didnt do well but actually i shld be the one to say sorry coz i make them worked so hard for the 2 months. Sorry and thank you gals, i hope u did learn something frm NRC although we didnt win it.



Second thing was abt Teachers' Day!!! Our schl teachers' day fell on 18th may which is in between mid-year exam. So, again prefects are the one who is going to suffer, sigh... They need to prepare for the celebration of teachers' day. So many things they need to do yet they need to prepare for their exams. It's quite tired and stressful to them. For a few days, we (prefects + me) stayed back to prepare for teachers' day. Here, i need to say sorry to all the prefects if i ever gave pressure to u during the preparation. Now, let's talk abt teachers' day!!! Sometimes we worked so hard but the results didnt turn out good. But for this time, the results was excellent!!! We put in so much effort and teachers' day celebration is a great success!!! The activities were nice and the students' performance were interesting!!! Oh ya, i must talk abt the teachers' performance too!!! Since students are willing to perform even though it's exam so we as teachers must perform too lar. Haha, we performed a drama talking abt students' behaviours. Students like to act as teachers so teachers will act as students... Me, played the role of students. haha, we borrowed schl uniform and schl shoes frm my students. OMG!!! All the audience were so surprised and they all enjoyed watching the drama. After tht many students praised tht we acted very well. Haha, actually i am not a crazy person but i will become crazy when i met with someone who always have crazy ideas, haha. Audience enjoyed watching and me too enjoyed acting too!!! One of the weekend in may, i went out yamcha with my ex-students. They talked abt ther brand new form 6 life and i enjoyed listening to it. i am so happy not becoz i can go yamcha, it's becoz they still keep in touch with me even though after form 5. (Thanks feiping for ur sushi and thanks wenjing for ur dumplings, i am so touched!!!) I hope tht i will be able to keep in touch with my present f5 students too after they left the schl this yr. Is it possible?



NRC is over, teachers' day is over, get back to exam now!!! Students busy preparing the exam while teachers' busy marking papers.. The schl was so peaceful and quiet during the exam period. Talking abt marking papers, it's a kind of mixed feeling depends on how u want to c it. Out of the 5 classes i teach, 4 of them are so called 'good classes'. Most of the students did score for my maths papers but there were a few students who did quite badly in the exam. I was so shocked and disappointed!!! Sometimes i will ask is it tht i am too busy with others work until i neglected my students, tht's why they did badly in the exam? Is that so? The other class was the last class. Sigh.... I spent so much effort and time to teach this group of students yet all of them failed the exam!!! What did i do ? I am so sad and disappointed and sometimes i felt like giving up... I know as a teacher i must 有教无类 (meant we shld nvr discriminate or give up our students) but i do feel tired. U spent so much time to teach them but when u mark their papers they seem like nvr learn anything!! All my efforts 付诸流水，哀哉。。。Is it that i pin to high hopes in my students? so, i try to comfort myself : Dont feel sad abt the minority groups but be happy abt the majority students. Actually, majority of my students did do very well, so ms chin be happy and contented!!

Muahaha... I managed to update my blog until May 2009!!! Congratulations and well done Esther!!!

Monthly review 4: April 2009

Erm... Y am i keep writing abt schl life? Sigh.... teacher is a very stressfuland busy job. I know all sorts of works nowadays r stressful but imagine we need to busy with teaching students, coaching students for koko activities and still need to bring back books to mark...c? very busy rite? anyway, sometimes i think it's becoz i am not an effecient teacher coz i saw some teachers r very relax. so, is it my problem?



Ok, now let's go back to april 2009! April is a challenging month to me. I need to organise a leadership camp for all the prefects, monitors and assistant monitors in my schl.. it's kinda hard for me to organise a camp coz i am not an active student during my schl times so i dont really know how to organise a gd camp.. But i still have to do, so do lar!!!



Luckily i get the help of my schl counsellor (thanks ms.Fazreena)!! At first, we thought of many places to do the camp. but, after we reconsidered it, we have decided to go to kem mahkota kluang. Many students asked me y we chose tht place, so now i want to tell the reason!!!

1. My schl planned to have camp thr since last yr but didnt make it. so, we hope tht we can try to do camping thr since we nvr go thr be4.


2. All the participants for this camping r gals and our schl lack of male teachers. so, it's quite risky to bring our gals out of the schl. Security is the main reason..Gals, i hope u can understand!!


3. i know many of the gals dont like camping. Actually, teachers do hate camping like them too coz we need to sacrifice our weekends rest time to take k of the gals. Another reason y we choose kem mahkota is : we dont have to involve many teachers for the activities coz most of the activities will be handled by the ppl thr. so, teacher will get less work, (less work = less complaints)!!

I felt so tired to organise the camp, so many works to be done!! Contact the person-in-charge in kem mahkota, prepare proposal, collect fees frm students, order t-shirts, brief the teachers and students involved... and many more... After all the preparation, it's the time for the camp!!! I am not interested to tell what happened during the camp, what i wanted to share is things after the camp...

After the camp, i heard a lot abt the camp from students and teachers. Frm teachers, they all agreed tht it's good to have camping activity thr. Of course lar, u all dont have much to do mah!!! Frm students, it's quite sad for me lor... Many participants complained abt the bath room (bilik mandi terbuka) and also abt the activities. What i wanted to say is: kem mahkota is not a place for challenging activities but it's a very gd place to built the students' discipline!! I think most of the students didnt enjoy the camping this yr coz most of the time they need to do marching (what they hate the most!!) and they hate the bath room too.

i think it's normal to feel sad when u tried very hard to do somethings for somebody but at last the ppl didnt enjoy or appreciate it... I am sad, disappointed and i am lost!!! I dont know what can i do so tht i can create a win-win situation. what can i do so tht other teachers wont complain and at the same time my dear students can enjoy it???? I am still seeking for the answers, anyone of u who can tell me the answers?

i'm lost!!! i lost interest and confidence to organise anymore camps, this makes me worry coz as long as i am in the schl and as long as i am the discipline teacher, thr will be a lot more camps waiting for me!!!

I'm lost but life goes on, works still on!!! Whenever i felt lost, i will try to persuade myself to go back to my core business. What is my core business? Of course teaching lar!! Whenever the situation demotivates me i will keep on telling myself to go back and concentrate with my core business. I dont know whether it is useful but this is the only thing i can do. No one is thr to comfort me abt this so i have to comfort myself. I keep on telling myself tht i dont have to feel bad as long as i have done my part and as long as i gave my best.....

Monthly review 3: March 2009

Schl sports day dah over. However, we still have district level and state level sports events (or more often known as MSSD & MSSJ). Once i mentioned abt MSSD and MSSJ, again i need to praise my schl prefects. U know y? Sometimes (actually is most of the times) i really respect my schl prefects, they are all young and sweet gals but every yr (nvr miss out) my schl prefects will need to involve in marshall. well, what is marshal abt? Marshal is a duty whr the prefects need to bring the athletes to the venue of the competition in the stadium. Sounds easy rite? Wei, since it's easy, y every must send convent girls prefects there? Hehe, according to the urusetia of MSSD and MSSJ, convent prefects r really in top form!!! They memang 'tahan lasak' (erm, maybe it's not gd to use ths words to describe but sorry i cant find other words, hehe). Pls imagine: no matter how is the weather (sunny or rainy days) the young and sweet gals need to take the participants walking here and thr, somemore need to kena marah by other teachers, so pity!!! Although they will be paid and will get a cert but i think this is too little compared to what they did. Actually i dont know whether the gals enjoyed doing marshall but as a prefects' teacher i got no choice, i need to order or force them into it (i hate forcing ppl doing things coz me myself also dont like being forced by others) . So,



to those who enjoyed doing marshall:

thanks for ur help and contribution.



to those who hate marshall:

thanks for ur co-operation and ur contribution as well.



At last, i managed to force prefects to do marshall. as what i said, i hate forcing ppl but what can i do? Haha, what i only can do is: kept on saying thank you to the gals and to the form 5 gals i gave the MSSJ cap to them as souvenirs (but maybe they dont even like tht too. y? y r u always so pessimistic? be positive!!!)



I know, I know!!! once i become discipline teacher, i always have to force ppl either students or prefects to do things tht they dont like, i hate to be discipline teacher!!! But what can i do? 这是命，认命吧！！

Monthly review 2: February 2009

好不容易，i entered February dy!! After so many shocked incidents in January, i managed to survive until february. Feb is a month of sports. Students r busy with latihan rumah sukan & merentas desa while teachers r busy chasing (or better to say forcing) students to attend latihan sukan. Actually, i admired my students a lot coz they have to come back or stay back in schl to attend sport house practice twice a week. I admired them not only becoz of their excellent attendance but also their team spirit. Especially during sukantara, i saw tht the students did try very hard to score for their sports house and they also encouraged their friends to score for their own house... I really enjoyed watching them worked hard for their own sports houses, gals u r great!!!



Since students need to stay back for sports house practice so teachers also have to stay back to look after the students too.. U know what? I went back home so late (almost 6pm everyday) !! First, i have to stay back to jaga my students practising. Second, since i am the ketua KRS so i need to stay back to jaga my KRS members to practice kawad kaki. Let me introduce KRS to u all 1st: Kadet Remaja Sekolah (KRS) is an UPS which always being looked down by others. I cant blame it coz most of the members in this UPS r passive. So it's quite hard to get 33members to do kawad kaki during sports day even though we have ard 15o members. As a teacher, i need to pujuk, order or even threaten my students to do kawad kaki. At first, the attendance was so teruk and many ppl rejected so i need to stay back to check on them. It's indeed very tired!!! Luckily, i got a very capable pengerusi for KRS, she helped me a lot. thanks nishanthi!!( She is a very good and helpful student, u all will see her name quite often in my blog.)



Apart frm sports day preparation, i need to get use with my new post as discipline teacher. My boss was away for maternity leave for 2 months since feb. so i need to take over all her duties, i need to take care of the students' discipline problem and also take k of all the morning session prefects . I need to make sure prefects r doing their duties during sports day. Again, i need to thanks Nishanthi .she helped me to arrange all the duties for the prefects.



Now, i have to cerita ttg sports day!!After busy for ard 2 months, finally it's the sports day! this is the 2nd yr i joined schl sports day. During sports day, i saw gals tried hard to win. i saw many things and all r the good things. I was so happy with this yr sports day!!! My sport house-red house bounced back!!! We r the champion for this yr, haha. Well done, gals!!! Not only the red house gals, i must praise my KRS gals too. They managed to come out as 3rd place in kawad kaki competition. Although it's only 3rd place but to me it's very gd dy coz KRS performed quite badly these few yrs (this was what i heard frm other teachers) So, Gals, i am proud of u all, thanks for all ur hard work!!!



Even though i am tired with sports day preparation but i really enjoyed it. I am happy and proud with the students' performance!! Now, i would like to take the chance here to thanks all those parties who did contributed to the success of sports days. Who r they?



To red house gals:

without u, red house wont become champion;

To KRS marching gals:

without u, we wont become the 3rd;

To all prefects:

without u, sports day wont run smoothly;

To all convent gals:

without u, sports day wont be a success!!!

thanks to all of u,

without u, ms.chin wont be able to enjoy it!!!


thanks, thanks and thanks again!!!



Sports day is over, february also came to the end....

Monthly review 1: January 2009

Time flies, it's June now!!!! Quite a lot of things happened in the past 5 months, so i have decided to have a slot known as monthly review. In my monthly review, i will try to sum up all the important happenings in tht particular month. So, let's start with the month of January 2009!!

January: school reopens!!! I was so reluctant to go back schl after 6 weeks of holidays. However, i cant deny tht sometimes (only sometimes) i will miss my students, haha (sounds so hypocrite but it's true!!!) Actually before schl reopens, we already had a few teachers' meeting. I know tht i will have more workloads this yr. However, i thought i can handle the workload better this yr coz i already got 1 year experience. BUT it's juz my 一厢情愿。As what i expected earlier, i will continue to become a form teacher in one of the form 5 class and i will be teaching mathematics too. These are all the things i expected, so nothing special and everything seems all right.

Who knows, life is unpredictable!!! one of the experienced teacher in my school tendered his resignation. It's all out of sudden!! He is a very capable and experienced teacher so we all felt tht it's a big loss to our schl. He is teaching maths and add maths in the schl, since he have decided to resign so someone must be there to take over his classes. Consequently, i was assigned to take over one of his add maths class and also one of his modern maths class. (A secret to be shared here: actually i volunteered myself to take over his modern maths class coz i prefer to teach SPM maths rather than PMR maths), so 5SC1 students pls dont hate me and also dont blame me for volunteering myself even though u dont like me, haha!!!Bored? Be patient, 好戏在后头！！！

I dont mind to take over all the maths and add maths classes coz this is our core business, but apart frm tht there is a mission impossible for me!! I was assigned to become the discipline teacher in my schl, so shocked!!! I know i am a person with high self-discipline (厚脸皮！！）but i dont think i can discipline my students. So, it's a mission impossible to me. However, this is an ORDER so i cant tolak!!! I can still remember tht when my schl principal announced in the assembly tht i am the new discipline teacher, all the students clapped loudly!!! The principal interpreted tht this meant tht the students are willing to co-operate with me but i interpreted it in another way: i think the students felt tht it's so funny to put a young and new teacher like me to become their discipline teacher!!!

一波未平，一波又起. After the male teacher resigned, another female teacher in my schl was transferred to a new schl. She was the head teacher of KRS so someone need to take over her duty, guess who? Again, it's me!!!It's not easy to become ketua KRS coz this is an UPS which most of the members are passive students, they dont really like to attend koko activities. in addition, actually i was a passive student during my schl times and i dont like to attend koko activities too. So, it's a big challenge for me to encourage students to join koko activities while i myself dont like it!!!

So far, i think these are the 2 major incidents tht happened in my schl which affected my schl life directly. Anyway, for ur information teachers are busy especially the first few months. This is becoz besides the admin work we need to busy with sports activities / sports day preparation in the first few months. However, i will leave the cerita abt schl sports day in my february monthly review...

To be continued...

Grand opening..

Hi, welcome to my blog. Today-4th June 2009 is a kinda special day. Y? Can u imagine an ICT idiot like me will ever write a blog? The reason is: I am interested in others' blog lately, actually it's quite unfair to read others' blog with writing blog, is it? Haha...After reading others' blog, i found that actually writing blog is a good way to express our feelings. That's y my blog titled like this. Sometimes i felt tht i have no place to express my feelings and to share my thoughts, so i hope tht i can make use of this blog to tell ppl how i felt. Anyway, since i declared myself as an ICT idiot, so everybody pls dont pin high hopes on this blog. Moreover, I am a secondary Mathematics teacher so i prefer numbers more than words, i am not good at language so pls spare me if there is any typing and spelling errors or grammatical errors in my blog.
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